Love is Blind

love makes your logic hides and your values burried down. watch out.

yes, it's true. and i really experienced this
so the story goes like this..
that day is the day of my aunt's wedding. she is a very nice person, and i think it is fair enough to say that we are quite close for an aunt-niece relation in my standard.
but that day is also the day of my sister's friend's wedding that i already make an appointment to go with. and unfortunately, the timing of those wedding is at the same time.
my plan was come to my aunt's wedding to congratulate her and then go. but apparently as i am already sick of it, Indonesian people have the culture of tardiness. The timing where i was supposed to be already gone, the bride and groom just sat on their seat, and the traditional dances still on their performances. that time, my friend texted me to notify me that he has arrived in the front of my aunt's wedding building.
suddenly, there's this dilemmatic discussion in my self what should i do?? he's already out there and waiting yet i haven't come up there to congratulate her.. ehh.. what do i do what do i do.. and suddenly, i just dont care whether i congratulate her or not, i just dont want to make him wait. so i went outside and go with him.
the journey sucks, we kinda lost for a while, we got kicked, cause there were no parking space in the hotel. it sucks. but evidently we finally get a parking space. we eat the delicious food, but we're out in a hurry. after that we watched football match. my country's football match.
then, my mom called and asking me where i am and my aunt were asking about my whereabouts. and then it hit me "uncomfortable feeling of ditching my aunt"
on the way i was thinking of going back to the building of my aunt's wedding to greet her. but then my mom said that she's already home and advice me to do the same because she was afraid that if i went there, there won't be any car to drive me home.
i am home. and i got scolded by mom and dad. i know i was terribly wrong.
i got into my room and called my aunt and apologized and tell the truth, although i really want to tell lies.
after that, i felt really horrible. i am an idiot in every way on every country.
where were my judgement and values?? I KNOW, and everybody knows that family first. my family is asking about my whereabout.
then i try to flash back the memories, that time i really don't want wait just a minute because i dont wanna make my friend wait. and then, why do i watch football first and not going back immediately?
idiotically, i am in love with my friend, i just wanna be with him and i dont want to make him uncomfortable. that idiotically simple.
for him, i dont care about my family. gosh, what an idiot.
i actually cried for my tremendous stupidity, and i hate my self for it.
now i can understand how can people throw away their family to be with the one they love, like those runaway couples. and i dont want to be that.
next time, i promised my self i will put my family first, and if the guy doesnt understand it, then he is just THE guy. Please logic, dont ever let me forget this value, dont ever let love blinded me again.